| written by J Ok.We lied. I miss blogging! So, here we are again.  Well, as many of you know, our lives have drastically changed within the last month due to a new addition to our family. Baby Megan. So, since my days are spent at home at the moment with her, my posts will mostly be about her.  My thoughts on being a mom so far: It has been quite an experience! I honestly didn't know if I'd survive the first couple of weeks with the frequent feedings, lack of sleep, and doubting if I was doing anything right, but every week since then has been a little better than the week before. Sometimes we have hard days, but for the most part I'm learning to anticipate her needs and read her better. I've experienced probably the hardest times in my life within the last month than ever before, but I've also experienced the most joyous times. I've talked to some mothers about how kids give you the best times of your life, but also the hardest. I think I'm starting to understand what they mean. It's the most awesome thing to see Megan change from day to day. She is so much more alert than the first few weeks of her life. Because she is more alert, she demands more entertainment. We end up walking around with her, singing to her, and talking to her. Neil is especially good at singing and dancing with her. I think she is fascinated by his crazy personality.  She is also getting bigger and stronger! At her last doctors appt. we found out she grew 2 inches and gained 2 pds. during her first month. Man, I wish I could grow 2 inches in a month! Right now she can lift her head up when you put her on your shoulder. I will be going back to work in Oct. and the original plan was to leave Megan with Neil's parents. Well, with his dad's situation, it turns out that watching her is a little too difficult for them. So, for the past couple of weeks we've been really praying about what to do. We just feel too uncomfortable leaving her in daycare because she is so young. So, I was talking to my family over Skype one day telling them that we're having a really hard time finding someone to watch her. I told them that I felt like we had two options. Either I don't go back to work and stay home, or we find someone trustworthy to watch her. The next day my mom calls me and tells me that if we're ok with it, she wants to come live with us and take care of Megan. I know it's not going to be easy for my family to be without my mom, but they feel like it's best for Megan to be taken care of by family. Wow! What a sacrifice. Who better than Grandma?? So my mom will be with us until June. Then we'll decide what to do. Anyways, we just feel so blessed to have such amazing family. It will change things to have my mom around all the time, but I'm realizing that as a parent, you do what you feel is best for your child. This is also an example of why I love being asian. I feel like this sacrifice wouldn't always be made in other cultures. I thought some of you would enjoy this picture. We've become really good at multi-tasking with Megan. Here's a pic of Neil playing video games with Megan sleeping on his shoulder. haha... 
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